Wednesday, October 30, 2019

Reformation Sunday

Weekly Friday afternoon Tactile graphics fest did not happen because RantWoman was learning about tandem biking and at a fashion show. But today RantWoman decided she needs to honor Reformation Sunday.RantWoman asked the Google for some images and did not inquire as to what this one represents. It turns into a line drawing and a tactile image quite nicely.

Unfortunately when RantWoman tried to embossa second copy, the embosser somehoe decided to eat sevearl sheets of braille paper at once and got seriously constipated. Thinking of martin Luther's troubled bowels, even though there is no Martin Luther image, RantWoman finds the problem somehow evocative.

Image from Google; iconography unknown

Image after Convert to Line Drawing does well as tactile detail


PS Readers dying to know what else rantWoman did for Reformation Sunday and how it went, RantWoman is doing iterative editing and hoping that what makes it to blog will have passed through a sarcasm filter several times.

Thursday, October 24, 2019

Grace-filled Speech

This comes via one of the Prayer Warriors*
*Prayer warriors? Some of them call themselves that.
--Saves having to duck a deisire not to entangle another entity.
**In the God can handle the questions, why does glorification of Christ have to be involved? RantWoman finds the language helpful actually but does acknowledge the question.


From Dr. Charles Stanley
October 21, 2019

Grace-Filled Speech

Titus 2:7-8    

Words are powerful. Harsh remarks can cause a destructive chain reaction, like a match in the forest during a drought. Kind comments, on the other hand, feel like a light summer rain that brings relief from the heat of day.

We can know our words are refreshing and seasoned with grace when ...

Our tone and manner reflect the way we want others to speak to us. The behavior of others shouldn’t determine whether we speak kindly to them.  If we want people to talk to us gently, we should consistently present positive body language and speak with a gentle voice.

What we say about others is similar to what we would want said of us. We all need to have our strengths emphasized by friends and family so we can be confident of the gifts God has given us.

We speak only words we know to be true. Gossip and lies have no place in a Christian’s conversation. The Lord opposes lying tongues and false witnesses (Prov. 6:16-19 ). 

Our speech is edifying. Speaking fairly and positively about others is part of godly speech.

Transforming our conversation begins with the right heart attitude. When we spend time in the Word of God, our hearts will soften and we’ll begin to respond differently. The Holy Spirit will convict us when our speech is inappropriate. He’ll also teach us to be aware of which words we use and when to stop talking. God will be glorified and others will be blessed when we practice grace-filled speech.

Bible in One Year: Luke 2-3   

Wednesday, October 23, 2019

Hark:Online F&P now in HTML--21st Century Quaker Alphabet soup

Update on the newest version of NPYM Faith and Practice: the version at npym.org is now instead
of a big ugly pdf with minimal navigation is a series of HTML files.That is MUCH easier for for RantWoman who will now finally go read the section of Faith and Practice on membership and releasing people from membership. Yes, you read that right: RantWoman did not think to ask anyone to do waht RantWoman would know how to do to get the requested info to RantWoman and no one thought to see that the info came to RantWoman.

Self-congratulatory digression: the NPYM webkeeper has been doing a great job of many things. RantWoman is proud: a few Annual Sessions ago in connection with another NPYM job transition,, RantWoman realized that webkeeper tasks were needed, realized that other staff were not going to do them, and realized there was room in the budget to do something. RantWoman has taken note of many important somethings that have occurred because of the decision to pay someone to be webkeeper.

Now back to the success of a more accessible online faith and Practice: The NPYM webkeeper, hired because RantWoman detected that the role of webkeeper is important and that important things were not going to happen without budget said he also put in a widget that RantWoman thinks is supposed to read the text aloud. RantWoman tried it the other night on the fly and something did not work; RantWoman has not gotten around to trying it again.

RantWoman will be curious to hear whether others find this mechanical reading helpful. RantWOman predicts not as helpful as a human voice but definitely invites readers to try it out and to opine.

In Light and Faithfulness

RantWoman.

Sunday, October 20, 2019

A good Day to Pray

RantWoman this is God. Good day for praying. Faithful to your Light. Not too much rain. Trees still that half-dressed fall-color mix. Meetinghouse and environs showing much care.

Tell them no matter what your Light looks like next week, there will be the small matter of logistics: elevators, stop relocations, whatever is happening with the tunnel and Link.. YOu will be hanging with some of the prayer warriors and will be around in time for the memorial.

Also tell them, there are some paths of public right of way enroute to nearby bus stops.where RantWoman will choose the safest routes for her with respect to other locations she visits in the area and will not expect arguments!

RantWoman, this is STILL God. They are telling you they can't worship with you. That may or may not be true but they are not feeling heard. And they apparently cannot hear how much what they ARE doing matters. So making your point with drama and flair, not matter how many peope --including you--have been on both sides of such situations--is a leading to sit with CAREFULLY. Today, beside pain from not seeing people dear to you who are hard to connect wiht otherwise, weird anniversaries, RantBrother's birthday, the adrenaline rush momento clothing ... But, let's try not to overdo it

RantWoman, this is still God. It is okay to be creeped out by the we only want to talk to RantWoman at memorials about Dead people reaction. It is YOUR reaction. Who cares what others think? So you do not think going to memorials is the magnaimous gesture others think it is?  Can anyone see, why the only memorials rule CREEPS RantWoman out?


RantWoman's confessor:

--Praying a problem in the Religious Society of Friends? who knew.

--Umm well, there would be the RantWoman factor....

--But seriously, you haven't been pushing anyone down stairs and laughing maniacally have you?

--No pushing down stairs. And Ambassador Thwack has not gone all percussive pedagogy on any errant vehicles in crosswalks lately. LOTS of email though. (urk!) Lots of poorly worded email. Needing to take up space but not needing to hurt people in the process.  I have learned at least sometimes to let email sit overnight. and I would rather paths to conflict resolution then endless data on need for...

RantWoman, this is god. I'm still here.You are being faithful to your Light. That is as much as you can do. Keep doing it.

In Light and faithfulness

Worship Review: North Seattle friends Church

Oh Dear. RantWoman visits someone else's worship and writes a review. Ummm?

Topics:
quality of worship  / sense of community
accessibility issues broadly defined


Part of Faithful to one's light was worship with North Seattle Friends, with appreciation for more and more frequent bus service enroute than when RantWoman first connected with that church many moons ago.

RantWoman arrived and immediately ran into someone she knows who worships there regularly. RantWoman,  urk, sat in someone else's usual seat, but the someone else turned out to be a joyhous great great grandmother who grew up Quaker in IA.She was also very gracious about sharing the bench with RantWoman

North Seattle Friends is more programmed with less expectant waiting than UFM. Today's worship opened with a presentation from a 16-year-old exchange student from Rafah in the West bank. The presentation was about what one would expect, but good to be reminded and powerpoint slides about food never hurt, even if one cannot see the pictures.

Then there was a scripture reading from John 10 about sheep.

RantWoman loves North Seattle friends Church worshippers. There are MANY under 50, a larger percentage than at RantWoman's home meeting. There is such a feeling of spiritual accompaniment. This is partly because there were two different sections that sound to RantWoman's slightly inattentive ear as if the whole worship were devoted to Joys and Concerns, and joys and concerns that sounded closer to the ground: housing, health, jobs, and a message or two about the state of the world or a professional achievement. To RantWoman's ear this added up to A LOT of talking, but it also meant may voices heard from and held.

One Friend offered sung ministry, In the Sweet Bye and Bye with piano accompaniment and in memory of his recently deceased mother.. The singing held together.

People are not shy about using the words prayer and Jesus. RantWoman offered prayers for RantBrother because it is his  birthday and then a what annoys RantWoman most about her situation short hand with oblique acknowledgment of a part for her and asked the whole situation be held in the Light. / pprayed about.

The pastor, yes, there is a pastor offered words at several points. There was closing silence and the pastor asked "Are all Hearts Clear" and worship broke.

RantWoman was VERY grateful to be among such Friends even though she was also cranky, not overly sociable, and at times distracted. RantWoman will probably be back.

Probably some more high points of worship will come to RantWoman.

It was fun to see a young Friend who also brought a frined as they check out various Quaker meetings.

Now we get to accessibility.
--A wheelchair user can get around, bit a few drive / roll arounds.

--There is a Mic in worship!!!! And people USE IT and use it well. RantWoman could not figure out the request protocol so she just stood, said she is from UFM and basically how does the mic thing work. A Friend brought the mic.

--The building has mold. It is the northwest so lots of buildings have mold., but... The church is set to move to another location because an expanding prep school bought their current location and the church made a good deal. RantWoman has no idea of the schedule for the move. RantWoman will pray that the construction manages to avoid mold.

All in all a blessing to worship there.

Friday, October 18, 2019

Kindly?

First, for a joyous and definitely not theologically insipid if also challenging statement of Quaker faith and Practice, check out
http://northseattlefriends.org/

Now for the Adult Religious Education program postponed from last weeik
Selling out to Niceness?
https://www.friendsjournal.org/selling-out-to-niceness/

This is to be the theme of Adult Religious Education on Sunday at RantWoman's Meeting.
Please be advised, RantWoman tends to be about the third youngest of regulars at ARE. RantWoman is pushing 60. RantWoman will be interested to hear whether the age distribution varies for this presenter.

Please be advised,, among regulars, there is one voice of great weight who speaks little in groups and frequently wonders to RantWoman where the word "Religious" is in various of the weekly offerings. Rantwoman loves this Friend partly BECAUSE she clearly articulates views and standards that RantWoman considers a touch archaic and that other younger Friends have even stronger opinions about. The other point about this Friend: she is among the peoople RantWoman is terribly grateful to see on Sundays and for whom it would be very difficult to travel to meet on other days. So RantWoman REALLY hopes that whoever is too afraid of being around RantWoman can also take into account other people who are very glad to see each other.

RantWoman has in mind another Friend who she usually sees after 9:30 worship who falls into a similar category..

ANyway, RantWoman read the article. Even though it is stirring, there is not as much "religious" as RantWoman might appreciate. But "theologically insipid...?" Uhhhh

Okay, out with it. Just go all Biblical on a testimony or two, even if the Biblical references are a littleoff.
"Thou shalt have no other gods before me!"
What does God require of us except to love justice, do mercy, and walk humbly with....?"
Now go find the part about that of God in everyone and then add up to the Testimony on Equality. And will this automatically be comfortable for people of privilege????

RantWoman has unexpectedly run short of biblical references related to teh Testimony on Integrity. So instead, RantWoman will simply point out the irony (?) of inviting Friends to engage deeply with each other a week after ... well read the blog posts.

Please be further advised: RantWoman is working on a kind way to address Friends who talk much, amy times and appear to listen poorly. Is it kind not to identify the most likely gender of said Friends?

Readers of this blog are invited to meditate about kindness, telling too much of the truth, and questioning the established order as reflected in this blog and particularly by recent entries.

RantWoman would very much like to hear the presentation. RantWoman would very much like to hear what rises for others from the presentation, particularly since Madame Clerk sent RantWoman a  eamil blatantly tryingto definie RantWoman out of the community. Not so fast! RantWoman has not dedicated multiple decades of her life to this Meeting to let anyone get away with that.  RantWoman kindly and regularly promises to be faithful to her Light and refuses to promise what that will look like. This week one version is just a schedule conflict. And RantWoman actually is willing to see  what can be done to nourish Quaker process among Friends younger than herself.

BUT right now Business Meeting has decreed that life is "safer" without RantWoman.
 RantWoman is not necessarily ill-disposed toward "safe," but for RantWoman safe and the presence of god are partners, particularly moments of difficulty.  RantWoman keeps reminding Friends that God keeps sending people with disabilities to live among us, that COPING has much to recommend it, and that people with disabilities are too regularly called to be places where they are implicitly or explicitly not wanted, up to the point of even ardent prison abolitionists with meditations on kindly calling the cops,

So RantWoman is wondering, seeking Light about what faithful to her Light will look like on Sunday.

Aside from kindly calling the cops though, RantWoman is meditating on the kindness of publicly eldering the presenter just as she is about to facilitate a discussion as above. Perhaps RantWoman can put the eldering in a separate blog post at least....

In light and Faithfulness

RantWoman

A fit of eldering and gratitudes.

RantWoman feels a fit of eldering and gratitudes coming on with respect to this week's ARE Friend presenter. While full-blown attention to equality might indicate months long cycles of testimony in Meeting for Business about Friend Presenter but from which Friend Presenter is excluded, RantWoman is going to strive to restrain herself. And this is RantWoman, attempting kindness despite uneven skill level in this area and possibly awkward timing. [Holy....! After these thoughts hit the screen, RantWoman was led to write a really long reflection. Please hold Adult Religious Education ijn the Light And stay tuned for what is bloggable from the flood which poured out.]

Two ghosts from Google
Luckily for all, RantWoman's Friday afternoon custom of messing around making tactile graphics has delivered....ghosts. They seem fitting somehow.. For Friends inexperienced in the world of tactile graphics, the task as RantWoman practices it: think of a theme. Find an image on Google that looks like it can easily be turned into an image that can be identified by feel. RatnWoman uses only about three functions of the tactile graphics software. Today RantWoman did not even feel like figuring out why the braille label was coming out  in contracted braille instead of Grade I uncontracted.
Two Ghosts turned into line drawings


RantWoman is humble about Friend presenter's preferences not to be called directly or emailed by RantWoman. Consider items below. How is that working out for you?

Is RantWoman supposed to thank Friend Presenter for, a couple years ago, hanging up on RantWoman before RantWoman could articulate some concerns about sound at a retreat? For RantWoman's trouble she spent the whole retreat grouchy about not being able to hear timid newcomer voices from across the room. Recently RantWoman learned that she also missed one speaker's terribly intriguing theme RantWoman would have been interested to explore further. Luckily? for Friend Presenter communications problems about sound system issues afflict more than one person and RantWoman is triving to be kind and not jump all over any single person. But if anyone WANTS to be jumped all over, RantWoman could probably oblige.

Thank you for being among a posse of elders who visited RantWoman off hours in her place of work and did not ask RantWoman a single thing about what goes on there.

Thank you truly for doing the best you could with a request for a document in accessible format. RantWoman forgot to request such in advance and the presenter bringing the document clearly does not think in realms electronic as well as RantWoman. But teamwork got RantWoman access to the content, an improvement over uneven responsiveness to requests in other fora for documents in alternate formats.

Thank you for the phrase "couple's counseling in a moment where the word "mediation" or the terminology free practice at the Boys and Girls club would have suited RantWoman's sense of terminological integrity better, and RantWoman could not care less if Friends consider this perspective overreacting. RantWoman honored a sense of Friend Presenter not wanting to be called ahead of the attempted mediation but RantWoman now definitely regrets that. Is that an example of treating RantWoman differently from everyone else? Is this just one of those times where RantWoman, a blind person with limited capacity to go research something herself, is just expected to put up with whatever....?  Is RantWoman being unrealistic in thinking, as long as you have been among Friends, have you never thought about other terminology?And thank you because even though in the moment RantWoman's brain melted down over the sloppy terminology, RantWoman has been sitting with one nugget that she really would like to try again about communicating.

Thank you also for the pizza message. The message and its aftermath offered interesting opportunities for data collection. May Friends please hold in the Light a wish that maybe there should be different data to collect?

Speaking of collecting data, RantWoman is collecting data about multiple instance of "don't want to talk to..." RantWoman counts some instances in her own spiritual compost heap, but we ain't none of us going to figure out this community thing if we cannot both talk and LISTEN.

PS thank you for the newsletter article about your lifestyle choices to fight climate change. RantWoman has different choices to make but definitely says .share your insights with your peers.

Wednesday, October 16, 2019

Called Meeting CORRECTIONS and Other Recording Clerk Moments

Excerpts from 9th Month minutes about RantWoman's words at the Called Meeting:

2019-09-01:         Approval of minutes, Eighth Month called meeting


The clerk explained that this morning, RantWoman had approached her, stating that the minutes did not accurately reflect what she herself had said during the called meeting, and urging that the portion of the minutes that recorded RantWoman’s statements not be approved until she could be present at a business meeting.  The clerk refused her, saying that this issue arose “virtually every time” RantWoman's comments are minuted.  However, the clerk and another Friend took notes while RantWoman was speaking, and they will compare those notes against what the recording clerk offered.  If the minutes show a need for a correction, the minutes will be brought back to business meeting.


Here, RantWoman reminds readers of EXTENSIVE corrections she recommended to what the Recording Clerk recorded.

http://rantwomanrsof.blogspot.com/2019/09/minutes-corrected.html

The revisions presented in 10th Month. RantWoman appreciates that nearly all of her recommendations were adopted. The only one missed. RantWoman said NEARLY burst into tears.


2019-08-01:         Statements by (RantWoman)

RantWoman said the following to the Meeting:   
*  she gave thanks for this opportunity to speak 
*  she referred us to the three handouts made available ahead of time (“Called Meeting Statement 1,” “Called Meeting Disability Principles,” and “Comments for Called Meeting: Technology. Email. Blogs.”)  She said that these were also posted on her blog, and invited readers to post comments there 
*  she observed that she has been a topic for discussion for the past six months, and by contrast was only able to address this Meeting for ten minutes 
*  she thanked a member of Care and Counsel who texted with her the previous night, finding that this helped her to focus on community and integrity 
* she suggested that she was offering “lots of simple, learnable steps that people can take that would make a difference” 
* she expressed hope for the future, in our ability to weave our community together 
*  she said that “I do not get a break from this [blindness],” even though others may get tired of her and be afraid of her.  She goes to many meetings where she draws adverse reactions, she believes due to her efforts to be an advocate, which are grounded in Quaker worship 
*  she is “cross” that Peace and Social Concerns organized an event, but she herself could not hear well at it.  She is also “cross” regarding an open house regarding pedestrian access for Sound Transit; someone there inquired as to her welfare, and she burst into tears 
*  she apologized to one Friend “for communicating badly, and for misunderstanding,” stating that she had “lost it,” and appreciates this Friend's presence and contribution to the community.  She also apologized to another Friend for losing her temper with him, though noting she may need to talk at a later date about why she did so 
* she noted there is a lot of strength and energy in our Meeting 
*  she told us about a friend’s mother who has macular degeneration, and who shows “major annoying blind person behavior”:  talking loudly and without ceasing, and standing closer than the norm.  RantWoman herself is annoyed when others behave this way, but she explained that she cannot change her behavior, though sometimes she asks for help and cues from others.  Her goal is “not to drive people bonkers,” and issued an invitation to anyone interested to come to two upcoming events involving blind people, where those in attendance may ask questions of the blind 
*  regarding the issue of being recognized by the clerk, RantWoman said that her Care and Accountability Committee did not engage with this.  RantWoman is certain that the world needs to hear what she has to say, but also that she needs to monitor herself 
RantWoman outlined the following actions or events which, in her view, have not worked: 
*  at a retreat sponsored by Worship and Ministry, RantWoman made suggestions regarding access for disabled people.  She believes that few of her suggestions were taken into account 
*  in a conversation with Nominating Committee, she was told she got off topic, and she asked to be told when she was doing so.  Three out of five of her comments were about disability.  She did a month of blog posts on disability issues.  A Friend asked not to be on her list (of e-mail recipients?) 
*  Oversight did a study on accessibility but a then-member of Oversight has acknowledged that it was incomplete
At this point, when her time was nearly up, RantWoman stated the need to extend her talk beyond the agreed-upon ten minutes.  The Clerk stated that she was given permission in advance only for this amount of time, and that one of the problematic behaviors being addressed is RantWoman's ability to respect boundaries.  A Friend asked that RantWoman have more time, because in her opinion this was warranted.  The meeting agreed to an additional five minutes, for a total of 15.  RantWoman then continued her presentation: 
* a committee is in the process of being formed to work on disability issues.  RantWoman was clear that such a committee was needed, but she was not sure what it was going to propose 
*  she has had two care committees, one of which was a big help with her housing.  Over time, she learned different strategies for managing documents 
*  her C&A committee had to be told repeatedly to include her when scheduling its meetings.  RantWoman refused to meet in a venue (such as downstairs, or in Quaker House) which would not be accessible to anyone, particularly her sister, she might choose to invite.  Three members of the committee have lived experience with disabilities, but nevertheless the committee “couldn’t really engage about that”:  they reiterated that the committee was not to deal with disability issues, but Dorene herself cannot separate out disability from the rest of her life 
*  she finds e-mail to be of huge value, since shc cannot read her own writing, and the search bar is very useful in finding topics 
RantWoman then called for questions.  There was one:  does she agree to abide by the community guidelines recently offered by W&M?  In response, RantWoman said that those guidelines were drafted without her presence or agreement; she acknowledged she has been hard on clerks, but she does not know what to do if we cannot see that bringing up hard topics is not the same as disrespecting the clerk; that she has tried in business meeting to raise the topic of Facing Homelessness’ accesssibility issues and our role as landlords; and that she does not know what to do with the guidelines: she is willing to live with them, but since they were drafted without her being in the room, she does not know if they were meant for her. 
At this point, the allocated time was up.  RantWoman said that our worship space is for all of us, said she would hold us in the Light from outside of the room, and made her exit. 


Further notes on minutes issues:

RantWoman here compares only before and after versions of her own words. in the interest of determining whetherthe Recording Clerk treats RantWoman's words differently than the words of others, it would be useful to compare before and after version of the rest of the called meeting minutes. RantWoman notes that but is not going to do that tonight.

RantWoman also had a phone conversation with another Friend who is very fussy about minutes. RantWoman asked how the corrections he offers are received. He says he gets his corrections in early, has conversations, and most of his recommendations are received.

RantWoman is trying to find the post and track the time period where RantWoman emailed the current recording clerk with precise suggested wording for a "RantWoman spoke at length" but there is not a dang thing about what RantWoman said issue. The recording clerk emailed RantWoman back that she preferred to receive corrections in business meeting. However IN BUSINESS MEETING she said she did not remember what RantWoman said but she had consulted with other Friends who thought what RantWoman said was unimportant. Make up your mind. Either you do corrections in Business meeting or you don't. Either you treate RantWoman's words and concerns equally with others or you do not.

On the up side, RantWoman remembers one recent minutes that specifically said "Because it was important to RantWoman"

RantWoman notes other recent blog items relating both to matters of disability and to recognition of the challenges of working with unfamiliar concepts



Monday, October 14, 2019

The After Party

Apparently there were seveeral voices standing aside, including one or more who might have been newcomers and one weighty elder. RantWoman THANKS THEM for being faithul to their light.

News flash: non-members serve on committees all the time. If Meeting for Business had gotten the Adhoc Committee on Disabilities committee created BEFORE releasing RantWoman from membership, RantWoman would be less clear about....

Releasing RantWoman from membership? Standing aside?.

It's not like timing or multiple forms of silencing were already making it pretty clear that no one wanted to hear from RantWoman in the first place.

Digression: Bless RantWoman's therapist's heart. Therapist was even more categorical than RantWoman about a sloppy use of mental health terminology issue. To make matters worse, therapist also said "RantWoman you stand up for people who can't so take care of yourself"  Dang. Couldn't we just go back to processing ... from childhood and not wander mentally into
 everyone else's ...?

 Isolated Friend?

TO REPEAT: RantWoman does NOT speak for the whole Religious Society of Friends. The model is Blog as Quaker journal. That means there is news of events of Interest to RantWoman. There are the compostings of RantWoman's soul. and there are unquestionably many problematic moments, particularly if by problematic part of the story is that Quakers are HUMANS and therefore have the same problems and challenges as other humans who might or might not be Quakers. Think only Medium Horrible on the #DisabilityInChurch index.

RantWoman is finding herself grateful for blog as documentation. RantWoman herself is stunnd about the clarity of some recent posts. Not necessarily this one. Hold that problem in the Light.

For the record, RantWoman wstill considers herself a Quaker and will be taking steps to ensure that connections remain.

RantWoman will also be taking other steps, steps that DO NOT involve violence and that RantWoman will undertake in a spirit of donating her body or at least some mental energy to science as in walkign through  related partly to another hat RantWoman has been wearing....

Connections?

RantWoman was faithful to her Light.

Some around RantWoman think "god made me do it" is all about oppression and non-consent and abuse. RantWoman is HAPPY to go on about how God made Me Do it is unquestionably problematic. Plus except for Barclay RantWoman has not read much of early Quaker take on "God made me do it." RantWoman has the impression that there was a hell of a lot of "God made me do it" about things like refusing Hat honor and oaths.

RantWoman has been getting all biblical lately about privilege, the testimony on Equality and Thou shalt have no Gods before me"

Plus there is that part from the Baptists of RantWoman's youth about Communion: this is god's table, not mine to invite or deny. RantWoman in meeting process geek mode thinks that can play out several ways. RantWoman in more theist than average for her Meeting mode can either go on about communion and shared spiritual experience or find the voices willing to say the phrase bizarre cannibalistic ritual.

RantWoman, no cannibalism in Business Meeting, PLEASE.

Yeah, yeah, and we are also hoping RantWoman will not be needing TOO much of her long ago experience with Direct Action.

But What actually did Faithful to RantWoman's Light mean besides that God keeps sending disabled people into a world that finds them challenging, has difficulty finding that of God in...?

RantWoman went to early worship. RantWoman had handouts. RantWoman delivered them herself rather than have them snatched up by the clerk as happened last time RantWoman brought handouts. RantWoman also heard invitation from God differently from what was written in previous minutes. RantWoman, HORRORS, remained in worship past the time she Meeting for Business  previously Requested she leave. Think Go'ds table, not Business Meeting's to invite or deny.

But RantWoman are you going to leave?

I am going to be faithful to my Light I do not know waht that will look like.

Clerk: RantWoman, if you don't leave we will have the meeting elsewhere. So much for Quaker discernment?

RantWoman knew there was one time-sensitive item on the agenda.

But RantWoman there is a whole Pendle Hill pamphlet on a similar ....

Yes, but it's God's table and RantWoman remains in a spirit of love.

The Clerk used the mic (hallelujah, the mic was there!) and LOUDLY announced that RantWoman was specifically not invited according to Meeting for Business. RantWoman rose to speak and of course no one brought her the mic. RantWoman has strong lungs

RantWoman spoke of Baptists and God's table to invite and, RantWoman is PRETTY sure, of God sending disabled people into the world whether they are invited or not..

But RantWoman are you going to leave?

I am going to be faithful to my Light I do not know waht that will look like.

The room rose and did their back to speak silence thing. RantWoman's memory that when the Stand and turns backs for silence thing happens, chances are depressingly high that the person the crowd hopes to silence has some kind of a disability.

But RantWoman are you going to leave?

I will leave when I am clear to leave.

RantWoman sat in worship for a time with DEEP gratitude for a Friend who offered to accompany her.

 RantWoman became clear to leave.

To repeat, there were multiple voices standing aside.

The words January and memorials and Scrabble are on point.

RantWoman is curious what of all this will appear in minutes.

RantWoman thanks Friends for a post event conference call advising her of the decision. The Clerk said she flet loved and trusted and like it was a gathered meeting.

How very nice.

The clerk also congratulated RantWoman about seeming calmer in recent weeks. The Clerk opined that maybe RantWoman really CAN control her behavior. Or perhaps RantWoman's behavior improved because of the threat of releasing her from membership. RantWoman is scratching her head about that particularly given RantWoman's clear call on penalty of release to acknowledge God's invitation to bring RantWoman's voice to the conversation. Honey, you KNOW you have a problem if RantWoman is going to continue to speak in spite of..

 RantWoman does not quite know how to receive this "comnpliment." RantWoman would more credit sense of HUGE prgress and validation about getting the Ad Hoc Committee on Disabilities created, progress if one does not count the ball repeatedly getting kicked down the road. .

For the record, recent Adult Religious Education has also been rich.

Further, for RantWoman's trouble and schedule upheavals, RantWoman got to sit on two blind people conference calls.

The first was smart  blind people talking about financial controls for an organization that does not have a lot of money. The voices were gloriously cheerful. They were tech savvy. They are doing coold activities and RantWoman did not add anything to her plate except listening and upholding.

The second was the blind prayer warriors VERY happy to welcome RantWoman on her first time on the call.,The prayer warriors are about what RantWoman expected about theologically multilingual God language and prayer worthy topics: jobs, health issues, quest for a church building.There was one firece and empathetic item related to substance abuse issues. The WOW was hearing accents from all over the country attached to names, hearing appreciations all around including fans of RantWoman and likewise fan vibes from RantWoman for the young women who convenes the calls and for her mother who was also on the call. Go Prayer Warriors.

Sunday, October 13, 2019

Please consider with prayers

Hi Friends

Apologies for what will be a long email and close to Meeting for
Business. I am humble about the thought that probably getting to this
earlier and trying to have some phone conversations would be good, but
let's please just do the best we can with the time and energy we have.

Basic outline:

Thank you's
Many I am tired gripes.just to hold in the Light.

Celebrate 10 year's since one Friend was hit by acar and her amazing recovery but
also hold in the light some topics I will blog about.

Some concrete suggestions about a schedule to address people's concerns.

A request that SOMEONE consider a call to refuse to proceed with the
items with my name on them without my presence.

Thank you to several of you for conversations and holding in the
Light. These thoughts rise from the combination of conversations and
personal prayer. Thank you all for help over a LONG time crafting
better seasoned email. I am VERY humble about when I can generate a
rough read and the realities of why that still sometimes happens.

Please feel free to share this. I know there are several people who
want to be the only recipient of emails. I think it important that
other Friends have the opportunity to read this but that is beyond my
capacity right now.

Thank you especially to Friends who are travelling.

two motifs have come to me for conversation:

--path to redemption

--resilience after disast or int eh face of oncogoing clalamity.

Those thoughts are motifs, not year concrete ideas but I hope Friends
will find hope in the items below.

I hope to write a clear one-page letter to hand out at Business
Meeting but what I have to say is more than one page.so I hope Friends
can read thoroughly and consider.


--I am tired of cringing in pain and embarrassment on UFM's behalf
sometimes when I am out in the community right now.

--I am tired of being on the business meeting agenda every month. I
think 3.5 hours at the called Meeting to craft minute rules trying to
contain God instead of answering a call to create a committee and talk
about what works and has not worked is embarrassing. I note in minutes
comments about all the time monitoring my presence and NO mention of
anything to do with reasonable accommodations.

I note in minutes reference to praying inside Meeting for business adn
to distress that I remain outside. Has it occured to anyone such as
maybe a somewhat self-righteous easily upset Young Friend (I am happy
to tell that Friend I use that characterization adn then to talk about
my own insufferable youth) that I ALSOam praying and in fact that public praying is a well-developed tactic
of non-violent protest?

I think a banish RantWoman minute that assumes that the only thing that
matters to me about life specifically at UFM is Death, memorials is
just weird. If a memorials only provision with no thoughts about Life
makes someone feel safer, they need professional help and please
excuse me if I cannot as the guidelines proclaim "accept eldering from
whichever members of pastoral care committees helped dream that up.

I am tired of Friends who claim that I do not season things with the
community if I do not season thins with any particular person.

I note minutes about more pleasant business meetings without me. I
definitely am not distressed by the thought of more pleasant business
meetings, but I am distressed that important topics are not coming up
or coming up in well-informed ways. I am also distressed that the
guidelines claim Quakers have been atthis meeting thing for 300 years
but there is no room to talk about many technologies  have evolved and
how Meeting might try different approaches.

--I am tired of arguing with one new member about boundaries in ways that
show she has NO understanding of the responsibilities of officers of
an organization.

--I am tired of Friends' non responses to phone, email, texts. Even a
simple thing like an inquiry to Facilities committee about closing up
preferences on Sundays after worshiop took THREE tries over more than
a month to generate a response.

--I am tired of spending months and months trying to get the minute to
creat teh Ad-hoc committee on disabilities created only to be
interrupted over and over, most recently by request to release my
membership and to address someone's fit of  what I read as one part of a text from taht Friend as "it's her or me" pique. If
I am expected to endure this much Quaker process, my understanding of
the testimony on equality would offer the same measure of seasoning.

--At the moment my light is deliberate and probably accidental
misunderstanding of several issues. I think the time has come for a
strong statement to take releasing me from membership OFF the table
and to renew work together.

One Friend asked me what I would be willign to do to help Friends feel
more comfortable.

I need to be present so that any agreement can reflect realities such
as my schedule and transportation issues.

I would be happy for say six months to alternate 9:30 and 11:00
worship so people can avoid me if they must.

This comes contingent ALSO on alternating months at Business Meeting
and specific attention to process for meetings involving blind people.

There should be no limitations on my aibility to participate in public
events at Meeting such as Scrabble club particularly since I am
responsible for their long tenure ans tenants.

Is there anyone who would be willing to address my suggestion about
proceding by requesting to include me?

Thank you all for reading this outline and rfor responding as you are able.

In light and faithfulness.

RantWoman

Thursday, October 10, 2019

What WORKS: Thank you for ASKING x 3

Prologue: NOT called to go away, not this time 

There is a narrative about "we have spent HUNDREDS (Really?) of hours on RantWoman and nothing has worked. RantWoman begs to differ. A WHOLE lot of time HAS been spent doing things wrong! A WHOLE lot of time has been spent by people RantWoman appreciates but is clear she needs help from others instead. A WHOLE lot of time has been spent by people who have no gift for what is needed but have enriched the community and nourished people who DO have the needed gifts. But more than enough HAS worked so that RantWoman so far still, much to some people's chagrin, has not run away screaming. THANK YOU FOR ASKING is one theme, but first more on points that have NOT worked.

RantWoman would tartly point out:

--There are now MONTHS of minutes ABOUT RantWoman. None of the months of minutes mention any specific measures that RantWoman would consider reasonable accommodations. If Friends do not know what RantWoman considers reasonable accommodations, then WHATEVER Friends have tried, they have NOT tried everything. Hint: RantWoman has two blogs and is quite frank about things that work, problems in common in many parts of life. For RantWoman, the terms reasonable accommodations and public accommodations reflect single standards of truth,tools, technologies, practices that make a difference in every part of life. There is more to be said but God is suggesting RantWoman stick to her What HAS worked Light here.

--A certain Care and Accountability Committee spent over a year trying to tell RantWoman, a person with a disability that the problems were not about disability. The problems are not ONLY disability but they certainly are about disability.

--A certain Care and Accountability Committee spent over a year demanding RantWoman conform to things she cannot conform to related to clerk / facilitation issues that affect every meeting RantWoman goes to but not being willing to visit other meetings and observe. RantWoman considers this a colossal error for one thing because the other meetings involve practices reflective of the ADA. Even though Quakers have been at this business meeting thing for hundreds of years, we supposedly believe in continuing revelation, and writers of guidelines could maybe possibly see what there is to learn from others.
  That could be a glorious opportunity to live with a single standard of Truth. RantWoman says this FIRMLY holding in the Light one Friend who works for a public agency and who RantWoman would ABSOLUTELY advise to consult her ADA coordinator if she EVER has to organize or lead a public meeting. RantWoman further notes that it is National Disabilities Employment Awareness Month, #NDEAM and every working age Friend in our community can embrace the opportunity to LEARN because at some point God is likely to send them need for the experience either for themselves or for someone with potential to be a valued member of a team.!

--RantWoman is unclear that EXTRAVAGANT appreciation for VERY modest improvements in respect for RantWoman's schedule will help but does feel called to note improvement. Recently RantWoman had a conversation with a former Clerk about need to talk to current Clerk. RantWoman pointed out that her phone accepts incoming calls. RantWoman also called current clerk about something else and appreciates that current clerk made a point of scheduling a call after one event and well in advance of the Saturday last minute that has been the norm for SEVERAL other Friends who have been connected with the story.

Thank you so much for asking: Faith and Practice. More importantly Thank you for asking about an audio option!

A recent Adult Religious Education session featured a discussion of the Vocal ministry section of the NPYM Faith and Practice. The discussion was rich. RantWoman was grateful actually to hear some Friends have not given messages and then regretted for years not offering the ministry; RantWoman also took note of one Friend who RantWoman usually does not think of as having a hard time offereing vocal ministry but who spoke of a recent ministry the Friend found very difficult to give.

RantWoman also did not speak of her inner turbulence that sometimes gets handled with music and themes where for instance in childhood worship was cool simply because there are logistical reasons bad things were not happening.

But RantWoman digresses. The thank you for asking is about how RantWoman reads and is the online version accessible. THANK YOU for asking and for mentioning audio options. RantWoman thinks there probably is some interest in an audio option so figuring out logistics to do that goes back on her mental list.

The current version is a large PDF which is not easy to open on one's phone. It has a table of contents but none of the document structure links and headings that would make it MUCH easier for RantWoman and her screen reader to jump around. Now RantWoman has to find the page number field and input a page number or just scroll down manually. But the scrolling down manually puts the reading cursor at the bottom of the page and RantWoman has to scroll back up. In other words, the document is partially accessible and with some difficulty. There are probably some keyboard navigation tricks RantWoman needst o look up, but there is still much to whine about.

In the realm of regretting messages not given, RantWoman MIGHT have been more insistent sooner about trying to build in more accessibility, but RantWoman did not push. However, there is a project.... and SOON RantWoman will check back and see abotu next steps forward. But THANK YOU FOR ASKING and BEING INTERESTED
.
And to readers for whom the above vocabulary is about as familiar as quantum physics, please BELIEVE RantWoman that it matters and that there are Friends in our community in a position to help.

When God and Power Point Meet Thank you for asking: Kenya. Powerpoint

Thank you so much Friend for asking whether the Powerpoint with the presentation about they Kenya public health trainign ministry was tolerable! To be honest, RantWoman did not spend a lot of time even trying to look at the fuzzy blobs on the screen, but you told the story clearly enough that RantWoman did not care about the Powerpoint. RantWoman might be interested in an up-close of the faces of some of the people you worked with, but that did not need to happen for Adult Religious Ed.

Thank you for bearing with the interruption: note from a public meeting

RantWoman has a Death By Powerpoint tag on her other blog. Ordinarily RantWoman would save presentation tips for traffic engineers for that blog, but RantWoman was at a meeting about pedestrian accessibility. The meeting featured blind people, deaf people with interpreters and people presenting Powerpoint who were not the person nominally running the meeting. At one point a presenter showed a slide with some kind of "heat map" showing indicators of sidewalk conditions in different parts of the city. RantWoman did not want the presenter to move on without at least a little description of waht the heat map showed. Luckily other blind people in the room had already been speaking up about accessibility issues so the presenter was not flummoxed at all when RantWoman just blurted out something about "Please describe the heat map!". He offered really interesting comments and then moved on.

It's not that there are no rules around RantWoman. RantWoman is just done apologizing for needing adjustments.

In Light and Faithfulness.

RantWoman

Worshipfully?

RantWoman, if you gripe about messages in Meeting for Worship, people will just think you are disagreeable and interrupting the flow of God. Some of them are even afraid to say anything in your presence.

Um, er,RantWoman is trying to be faithful to her Light. RantWoman favors an Abraham Lincoln quote aired recently in Meeting for Worship: RantWoman hopes she is on God's side and would not mind the possibility that she is mishearing something. Everyone in the story is loved by God. If we are all working on that love one another stuff, well, um....

And there could be many reasons, not mutually exclusive, why RantWoman notices a message.

--RantWoman almost always swoons when she hears an unfamiliar voice, perhaps timid, halting, not sure if they are to give a message and then overtaken. Sometimes RantWoman wishes they would be overtaken in the presence of a microphone. RantWoman hearing loss? What hearing loss? In any case, RantWoman is nearly always silently cheering: Preach it Friend!"

--The message comes via someone on RantWoman's Frequent Flyer List of people RantWoman wishes would do extra discernment now and then and pray either that what is on their mind comes also to someone else or that some other thought fills the space.. Remember the frequent flyer list includes RantWoman.

--The message is something that intrigues RantWoman piques her curiosity, that she maybe wants to ask more about, or that has touched her in some way, positive or...

--Yep, and if Friends are afraid... pray. Pray that if there is eldering to be had, it can be received.

Today's eruptions in relation to two messages a couple weeks ago.

Message 1: a wonderful rendering of the Girl from Ipannema about Quakers gathered together. The music had hope.

...and the message also made RantWoman think of the spectacular yelling match fight the RantSisters had one time at an otherwise empty bus stop in front of RantMom. There was yelling. There were a couple inappropriate words. RantMom was horrified. The RantSisters exchanged valuable information and felt much better afterward. RantWoman knows that songs are not supposed to evoke thoughts of public yelling matches but is still wondering whether a good public yelling match might help. RantWoman would even give permission to apply the phrase "strong women cat fight" if that would help clear the air.

Message 2 : in relation to a Friend's message from worship about reading John Woolman's journal and liking the thought of Woolman laboring individually with many friends in Meetings about the need to abolish slavery.

RantWoman heard particular interest in the laboring one on one angle.

RantWoman, this is God. How about you let me handle it?

Um God, you know that part about you have no hands but ours. Same thing for words. Words need to be held in the Light.. RantWoman's inner blowtorch kicked in; so far except for these electronic scribbles, nothing has made it out of RantWoman's mouth.

Consider:

--It took another hundred years for the US to get serious about abolishing slavery. Of course individual drops grow into torrents, but it's the 21st century. Slavery has been abolished. the effects of slavery linger in all kinds of inequities. There could be conversations about redlining, the school-to-prison pipeline...There would be community. There would be individuals bringing shared light...

--More to the point there is also a climate crisis. It is 116 deggrees in whatever town in Southern India had its mayor on the radio last week. The seawater is lapping at a causeway in Victoria, whose mayor was also on the radio. There are a million ways to fight climate change. RantWoman happens to favor things to do with public transportation but there are many options, options that build community and shared labor and well if that one-on-one laboring with is not to be had...there is still community to carry one along.



Friday, October 4, 2019

Decolonizing the classroom, but with problem sets on the side.

RantWoman is reflecting on

--the beginning of the college school year in vicinity of her Meeting and how different the world and studying might look 40 or 50 years on and what spiritual quests today's students will be embarking on.

--50 years of women undergrads, including Sonya Sotomayor '73 at her alma mater and 40 years since RantWoman entered the same ivy-covered halls.

--A whole muddle of topics including women in academia, women / Quaker women in STEM, tenured women professors, professional mentoring, #MeToo 

Below this introductory exposition, RantWoman reposts with permission a wonderful long article about decolonizing writing.

RantWoman is happy to acknowledge. this post is likely to drive both her humanities major readers and her engineer / technocrat/ science geek readers crazy. Isn't it glorious to be an equal opportunity offender?

Basically, problem sets are necessary for learning math, learning to build bridges that do not fall down RantWoman has read the article below. RantWoman wants to say "YES, This!"

And RantWoman still thinks the story needs some problem sets. In other words, just to balance a certain rhetorical capacity to drive engineers crazy with liberal arts major language and rhetorical capacities, here RantWoman is also unabashedly offering to drive liberal arts majors mentioning problem sets. Consider yourselves held in the Light, all of ya!



­­­­­­Decolonizing the Classroom. An Essay in Two Parts
Frances McNeal and Peter Elbow
Writing On the Edge  28.1  Fall 2917
Part One.  Frances McNeal
It is obvious that there is not a university in this country that is not built on what was once native land. We should reflect on this over and over, and understand this fact as one fundamental point about the relationship of Indians to academia.
   
                                                                                     Janice Gould (Concow)


The Story Begins: Honoring Ancestors and Rhetorical Sovereignty

I write from the Ouchita and the Comanche Territories of Indigenous people in Turtle Island/North America. Honoring our homelands as Indigenous people, I begin this story with acknowledging the original peoples and protectors of these territories and land who are alive, present, and still fighting for sovereignty: the right to govern and express ourselves the way we see fit. I also honor my African American ancestors on this land of Turtle Island/North America who have and continue to resist enslavement, apartheid laws, and violent persecution. Furthermore, beloved reader, I honor your ancestors who have fought for justice and peace. I welcome our ancestors into this circle created through this essay as we together reflect on decolonizing our classrooms and honor our web of relations: seen and unseen.
Notably, I enact what Scott Lyons (Ojibwe/Mdewakanton Dakota) describes as rhetorical sovereignty: “the inherent right and ability of peoples to determine their own communication needs and desires” (450). This rhetorical sovereignty is something I will do throughout my section of this essay as a means to create a decolonial dialogue that calls for listening deeply, speaking across our differences, honoring our uniqueness, and recognizing our interrelatedness. I will draw on the assistance of my elders and relatives by putting their quotes (words of wisdom) in stand-alone places while also posting questions for you to ponder that are italicized. This is my way of inviting you, beloveds, to pause and reflect while listening to the voices of those who are marginalized in the social order.
We scholars, whether American Indian, African American, Chicana, Latino, Asian American or Euroamerican, perform our work on stolen, bloody ground. That should give us more than pause” (511).

            Malea Powell (mixed-blood Indiana Miami, Eastern Shawnee, and European-American ancestry)



An Offering of Stories
Beloved Community, I come to you with a clear heart and good intention with an offering in my hands of precious stories. These are the stories of the survivors and the resisters of genocide, imperialism, colonialism, white supremacy, patriarchy, and multiple forms of oppression. I invite you to tell them in your classrooms. In an appeal to our interconnectedness as living beings, beloveds, my offering ushers forth a call for urgency to listen closely in our classrooms to other stories! Let us remember together: “[stories]have the  power to make, re-make, [and] un-make the world” (Powell, “Rhetorics of Survivance” 396). In this essay, I share stories about why decolonizing the classroom is necessary through the use of braiding sweet grass (knowledge production), kitchen tables (relational learning), and created stories (creation awareness of stories-knowledges).
This is my story:
For most of my time in educational institutions, my communities’ knowledges, stories, and histories were not told in the classroom. The messages I received through this erasure was that all the people who loved me the most in the world: my grandmothers, grandfathers, mothers, fathers, aunties, uncles, sisters, and brothers’ lives and knowledges didn’t matter! I also have seen how these erasures in the classrooms are intimately connected to the perpetuation that our lives don’t matter in society (Turtle Island/North America). Through the daily assaults on our humanity, continual discrimination, horrific violence, land theft, and the outright killing of people who look like me, I learned that these harmful interactions in education and in society caused me to question the dominant narratives told to me. I have been influenced by destructive teaching practices, which caused me as a teacher to always ask: who am I not making integral in the subjects I teach and how can my teaching encourage decolonization and social transformation? The teaching practices disregarding subjugated communities I survived through caused me to work on a decolonial pedagogy, which invites students to tell other stories that encompass acknowledging Indigenous homelands, the most vulnerable in our society, multiple forms of oppression, and land redress. My borderland living inspires me to invite you to join me in transforming our classrooms into spaces that create stories that re-make our world as a place where all living beings have a place of honor, including in our educational systems. And for us to work together to decolonize our classrooms and the world we live in. I hope you are ready because I sure am!

“Choctaws have a mysterious word that represents a kind of creation. It is
nuk or nok, a suffix or prefix that has to do with the power of speech, breath, and
mind. Things with nok or nuk are so powerful that they can create. A teacher, for
instance, is a nukfokchi” (123).
                                                                                                              LeeAnne Howe (Choctaw)

The Web of Relations and Braiding Sweet Grass (Knowledge Production)
In what ways can we invite students in our teaching to feel-think about listening, reading, and writing in relationship to subjugated histories, stories, and worldviews?

Decolonial pedagogies require that we honor our web of relations by being deeply aware of each one’s valuable contributions and our connections with each other. This is why the knowledge systems we braid in our classrooms with our students must make our marginalized relations an integral part of our discourse, curriculum, and approach to teaching. The voices and personhood of our marginalized relations become an imperative aid to understanding the complexities of diverse knowledge system(s) and multiple lived realities. In order to address current atrocities, historical trauma, and colonialism we must create strong braids of awareness that are sturdy bridges to new stories. These stories help us reimagine the world as diverse global citizens: a reimagining grounded in the promotion of justice for all, including the Earth. In this fashion, what we braid and how we braid knowledge systems in our classrooms is so important.
[T]he sweetest way [to braid sweetgrass] is to have someone else hold the end so that you pull gently against each other, all the while leaning in, head to head, chatting and laughing, watching each other’s hands, one holding steady while the other shifts the slim bundles over one another, each in its turn. Linked by sweetgrass, there is reciprocity between you, linked by sweetgrass, the holder is as vital as the braider. (ix)

Robin Wall Kimmerer (Anishinaabe and European)

 Like braiding sweet grass, we must recognize each one is valuable to the process and all actions impact our web of relations. When we don’t, the subjects taught become one-sided, bias stories cutting off the contributions and stories of the most vulnerable in our society, including our students, and ignore the material impact of injustices in our social order. As we reflect on braiding sweetgrass (creating relational knowledge) and our web of relations, let us consider why it is imperative to teach our subjects in relationship to subjugated histories, stories, and worldviews. When we dare to teach subjugated knowledges, our subjects are expanded by recognizing other traditions and ways of being in the world. For example, by making women of color(s) and Indigenous women’s histories, especially of transformative activism, an integral part of my courses, students expanded their rhetorical strategies and their understanding of the role social location plays in writing. When we include subjugated knowledges as integral to the curriculum, we transgress the silencing and erasing of our marginalized relations and their voices in an ‘eurocentric’ educational system. Thus, we defy the fictitious tale of the “eurocentric worldview” being the only story; therefore, the only truth and superior truth.  One story, One truth, One worldview leaves us blind to the complexities of our world and the diverse realities of the people in it.
“Our educations have been biased. The eurocentric educational systems, media outlets, and other institutions omit and distort information about our own groups and those of others. These hidden mechanisms sustain oppression, including an often invisible and normative ‘white’ supremacy. Not surprisingly, we all have “blank spots,” desconocimientos (Anzaldúa), and so forth” (125).

AnaLouise Keating

Layers of realities become essential to the braids we weave in our classrooms. Soon we find, similar to braiding sweet grass, we can’t centralize one slim bundle of knowledge in a diverse world and hold on to it only. In order to create knowledge that is relational, we must hold on to multiple slim bundles of different knowledges while “shift[ing] the slim bundles [knowledges]over one another, each in its turn” (Kimmerer ix). In this way, we braid together knowledges that are conceptual frameworks to our planetary existence as living beings who are diverse. We offer students an opportunity to expand their education and awareness, as well as listen to other stories and tell their stories. In addition, the students become an intimate part of making knowledge as they hold onto the strands (knowledges). As holders of knowledge, students’ knowledges become an integral part of the sweetgrass (relational knowledge systems) they are participating in braiding (creating). Similar to braiding sweet grass, reciprocity, relationship, and recognition that we are all learner-teachers strengthens the braiding of sweetgrass (producing of relational knowledge) between the creators (teachers and students). Our classrooms become transformative kitchen tables that invite all our relations to exchange knowledges and listen deeply while sitting in a place of honor.

Kitchen Tables (Relational Learning) and Transforming Our Classrooms
In what ways can we transform our classrooms into spaces where students question status-quo stories while honoring other worldviews and knowledges as an imperative part of their lives, discourses, writing, reading, and listening?
Join me in the creation of kitchen tables to decolonize our classrooms. Let us address the deep need to create a multifaceted dialogue calling for participation, interaction, and listening across our differences while recognizing our connections. At these kitchen tables we decentralize status-quo stories in our classrooms. Our classrooms and our world are haunted by the many stories of activism and resistance to what AnaLouise Keating describes as status-quo stories: “worldviews and beliefs that normalize and naturalize the existing social system, values, and norms so entirely that they deny the possibility of change” (23). Challenging these status-quo stories grounded in an ‘eurocentric worldview’ in our classrooms, we make room for other stories not as alternatives, but viable options. Our classroom kitchen tables can become a place of exchange questioning the normalization of status-quo stories by serving dishes called other realities, transformation, and change while welcoming everyone to sit at them through our discourse, curriculum, and approach to teaching in relationship to subjugated knowledges. For instance, what happens when we create teaching activities on the stories of some of the most vulnerable in our society such as African American mothers who have lost their children to police brutality, Native women who have been sexually assaulted, and Latina/Chicana women who have been discriminated against on their jobs? How might hearing these stories invite students to become more consciously aware of the severe social injustices of those who are not centralized or studied in most classrooms?
“The 'kitchen table' is a key metaphor for understanding the womanist perspective on dialogue. The kitchen table is an informal, woman centered space where all are welcome and all can participate” (59).
Layli Maparyan
The decolonization of our classrooms through kitchen tables that invite our learning communities to address and challenge status-quo stories is not a means to demonize Greco-Roman philosophies or European and Euro-American histories, rhetorics, and stories. Instead, these kitchen tables of decolonization are a means to question why in the 21st century are most U.S. educational systems centralizing a ‘eurocentric’ worldview as the only and highest truth in a diverse world that has multiple histories, stories, and truths? Because of centralizing one worldview (one story) as the ultimate truth, we are plagued with deep biases, injustices in our educational system and social order that have horrific societal impact. Classroom kitchen tables are a valuable means to expand student learning.
“Blame is not useful, but accountability is. It is nonproductive to blame ourselves and/or others for the misinformation we have learned in the past or for ways we have benefitted and continue benefitting from these unjust social systems. However, once we have been exposed to more accurate information, we are accountable! We should work to do something with this information--perhaps by working towards a more just future.”(125)
AnaLouise Keating

Created Stories (Creation Awareness of Stories-Knowledges)
How can decolonizing our classrooms open integral space for oral traditions, art, writings, and rhetorical strategies that address issues of oppression, subjugation, genocide, colonialism, slavery, patriarchy, and sovereignty as integral parts of our classrooms?

Beloveds, the stories-knowledges we create as teachers in our classrooms impact not only our students, but the way they interact in the world with others. In decolonizing our classrooms, we must become deeply aware of the stories-knowledges we are generating by asking what narratives are we creating? How are we normalizing particular stories-knowledges and what fruit are they producing in the world? And, who is being made an integral part and who is being left out of knowledge production? Ultimately our world reflects the stories we are telling and not telling in our classrooms. All we have to do is reflect on most curriculums, in most disciplines, and at most universities that leave out the realities, knowledges, and stories of women of color(s) and Indigenous women. As a result, we are saying to our students that these groups are not significant knowledge producers, they are not worth learning about, and they are expendable. This is why I believe that decolonizing our classrooms must include creating multiple stories-knowledges stemming from many cultural traditions as an essential part of knowledge production that will give our students the tools to expand their learning, address injustices, and re-make our world.
For example, our promotion of subjugated stories, that includes the origins of a place, from Indigenous nations in Turtle Island/ North America such as the Wampanoag and the Haudenosaunee who question the tale of Columbus, a colonial-settler, discovering America when it was already populated and continues to be by Indigenous people with many rich traditions. Or, our telling of stories from the perspective of Indigenous nations that describe the survival and resistance against the horrific impact of violence, killing, and rape of Native people when Columbus and other colonial-settlers came to Turtle Island/North America. These are stories that allow us to come face-to-face with colonialism and social injustices as well as narratives that underscore survival and resistance as an imperative part of the learning journey. As teachers, our stories we create in our classrooms make a difference as we invite students to develop tools to address oppression and re-make our world. I conclude with some questions: What type of creator are you in your classrooms? What stories are you telling to create a better world for all people, including the most vulnerable in our society? How will you begin to decolonize your classroom through telling multiple diverse stories? Together as teachers let us create teaching practices that enact decolonizing our classrooms, which is intimately connected to decolonizing our world.
“It's about honoring people's otherness in ways that allow us to be changed by embracing that otherness rather than punishing others for having a different view, belief system, skin color, or spiritual practice. Diversity of perspectives expands and alters dialogue, not in an add on fashion but through a multiplicity that's transformational, such as in mestiza consciousness” (4).
                                Gloria Anzaldúa

Part Two.  Teaching on Stolen Land.  Peter Elbow
How I Might Decolonize My First Year Writing Class                                                                                                              
I’m long retired and not about to teach a first year writing class, but after hearing Frances’ presentation on decolonizing our classrooms at the UMass Symposium for Writing and Teaching Writing (which I’d set up in 2000 and led till 2015 when I moved to Seattle), I wanted to challenge myself:  How should I have been teaching first year writing all these years when I was doing it in classrooms on stolen land?

Some Premises  
--Especially for a project like this, I need to acknowledge that I function as a white male and I must try to stay aware of my privilege from that identity. 
--The highest priority for the classroom will be respect for all members.  Free speech is desirable, but if it leads to disrespectful speech, I'll claim the right to interrupt it.
--I and all my students often have what we might charitably call “inappropriate feelings”--feelings that are racist, sexist, and all the rest—feelings that are distorted by our past personal experiences. I have found it helpful to learn to acknowledge such feelings to myself. (Indeed such feelings actually make sense given everything that has happened to me in the past). The important point is that I don’t have to condemn myself or my students for having such feelings.  But I can try not to express them, and as teacher I can interrupt disrespectful words and actions that stem from such feelings.
--I will set up lots of private freewriting in this class--some every day.  That is, given the premise of respect to others at every moment, we often need to use private freewriting to explore and acknowledge certain thoughts and feelings and thus keep them to ourselves.
--I find it important to “profess” what I happen to believe, namely that everyone at every moment is always doing the best they can--while at the same time often being bent out of shape by past hurt and oppression. Bad words and actions are still bad, but they don’t make us bad as persons. 
--Grading.  I will use a system of contract grading (see Danielewicz and Elbow) to try to create a culture where students don’t have to compete with each other for grades or try to “please” the teacher as adversary who must be won over.
--A final overall perplexity.  In everything I write, I can’t help imagining the students I’ve actually had--at UMass Amherst, SUNY Stony Brook, Evergreen State College, and M.I.T.  These were students mostly from the white middle class--with some from the working class and a few from genuine privilege.

Opening Theme:  Process
I’d start the class by trying to give students as much as I can of the experience of hearing you, Raenea.  I hope there’s an on-line site where we can hear you giving the passionate presentation that I heard this summer.  I’d try to play a video or audio version.  In hearing or seeing you, they would hear all the reasons why I’m trying to teach in the way I am here.  We’d also watch some other clips of eloquent speakers;  then read some written texts that convey passion or strong conviction.
Then I’d try to help them do some writing that transfers passion or deep conviction to the page.   I’d ask for story and testimony, and interludes of speaking too, as primary modes--even for nonpersonal or academic tasks.  Thus lots of speaking and reading aloud. I want to show them that they can get passion on the page--even for nonpersonal or academic tasks

Opening Theme:  Content
            As Al-Din writes, we are at a moment when most births in our country are nonwhite and thus we need to prepare for the reality of a white-minority, multi-racial USA. We need to figure out what it means to be American in this new era.
            I’d start by acknowledging how this room we are sitting is on stolen land obtained through racist violence, rape and so on. I’d ask people to freewrite about that:  do they (like me) have to work to remember or experience it?--the reality of it?--even the possible irritation at someone bringing it up again--someone trying to do a guilt trip on them?  It can make people mad. I would make space for private freewriting where people can freely vent our feelings. 

About Feelings
            Even though I’ll try keep this course from being an attempt to impose “guilt trips,” the fact is that we whites can never afford to let ourselves be comfortable.  By the same token, though I cannot speak for Native Americans and people of color, no doubt they will find it hard or impossible ever to get past anger or depression or whatever. 
            So here’s a major problem of the course:  how to learn to live with feeling uncomfortable.  My own personal habit has been to push such feelings away and forget them.  I need to start the course by acknowledging my own self-evasion about the fact that this classroom sits on stolen land.  And how about feelings for Native Americans and students of color?  I’m not qualified to say.  We whites can try to learn from them--insofar as they are willing to share their thoughts and feelings--but we need to recognize that they have no obligation to share.
            Guilt will be one of the biggest problems of the course and a perplexity for me as a white liberal:  While we recognize and experience that this is all stolen land, how can we let it be more than just a guilt trip for us white or Nonnative American folks?  That is, guilt doesn’t seem to help.  So how can we learn to acknowledge discomfort but not just feel guilty.
            For dealing with guilt, factuality is key. Instead of self-blame, face facts.  Be empirical, not judgmental. Indeed, wallowing in guilt can get in the way of simply facing hard facts. Facts like these: White privilege is “unearned.” Even though we and other whites today didn’t steal the land, and even though we’re not bad people, we didn’t earn the privileges we get through the original theft and our white identity. Guilt doesn’t help;  we present day whiteys didn’t do it ourselves;  we are good people.  Still the land is stolen and we benefit from it. 
            After the assassination of Martin Luther King, I became a volunteer teaching a writing course in the (Black) South End of Boston. Late in the semester, a guy in the class asked me what I was being paid. I said with quiet pride that I was a volunteer. He said, “I’ll never trust someone who isn’t being paid; I can’t trust anyone who does something out of guilt.” We need to discuss this claim. Are we always tainted if we volunteer to help people who have been harmed by our nation or culture? 
            I will design exercises and activities to try to help people to think about living on stolen land without just taking on guilt.  We can write about times when we did something that was bad in its effects, yet we’re not confused into feeling guilty.  Think, for instance, of when we were toddlers or small children and we spilled juice on the floor--even when it stained a rug or a couch or the bed clothes.  If we were the parent, few of us would want to make that small child feel guilty--even though a harm resulted.  Another example:  we said something that hurt someone a lot, but we weren’t trying to hurt them;  we didn’t know our words would have this effect  
            There’s a different issue of feelings for Native Americans and people of color:  anger and what to do with this anger. 

The Role of Culture
            Early white folk--and later folks too--were themselves mentally colonized by a culture that didn’t think it was wrong to steal this land:  a culture that simply breathed in with our mother’s milk the notion that white “civilized” people were not just better but were entitled to take everything from “primitive” people.  If that seems farfetched, think of a comparable feeling most people still live with.  That is, most of us have been led or “enabled” by our culture to do things that are terrible for the planet:  to destroy the earth and use up resources.  For another cultural underpinning of what’s reprehensible:  think about how much behavior in our culture is driven by sexism and pornography.

We Can Explore Restorative Justice: Restitution. 
            This is a great strategy against mere guilt.  We see a simple form of it in a common child rearing practice:  “consequences.”  It’s helpful when parents learn to say, “You’re not bad for spilling that juice on the floor.  You simply need to wipe it up.”  (Trickier if it’s on a light tan couch)
            Full restitution to Native Americans might seem politically “unrealistic,” but what if we simply let ourselves dwell in the knowledge that it’s exactly what ought to happen?.  Instead of just throwing up our hands, we can realize that In truth, it is perfectly feasible to restore huge amounts of stolen land.  The US government owns something like 90% of the West.  Perhaps the best we can do in a course like this (realizing that it’s not a sufficient solution) is to keep our minds on this problem.  Feel the discomfort, but not fall into the useless guilt or inaccurate feelings that nothing substative is possible.  Keep our minds on facts.
            Here’s a good example to compare:  Israel built extensive settlements on Palestinian land so as to make it seem politically impossible to return it.  Yet actual restitution to the Palestinians strikes me and some Israeli commentators as in fact feasible--with less disruption than the return of much US land to the Native Americans.  Israelis give in to the myth that it’s not politically feasible--yet discussion of restitution there does not go away.
            A major activity of the course for any Native Americans and people of color will be to slowly work through their responses to the realities--perhaps often starting with numbness.  And for the rest of us:  to learn from an Native Americans and partial Native Americans.  Also from nonWhites.  There are interesting comparisons to be explored between having ancestors whose land was stolen and ancestors who were brought here as slaves in chains.  In other classes when I explored identity, I often brought LBGT visitors for testimony if there weren’t any in the class who felt like testifying.  Learning from them must be major crucial “reading material” for the course:  major “content” to study. 
            In a way, this is a course about learning to live with awareness.  For native Americans a course about exploring possible anger or numbness.  Also about ways to feel anger and still be friends with whites

Language and geographical names will be a nontrivial theme.  Place names themselves tend to have interesting histories and etymologies:  perfect material for mini-research and presentations by students.  I noticed an interesting contrast when I moved from Amherst Massachusetts and Stony Brook New York to Olympia Washington. In the East we were surrounded by Native American place names like Massachusetts itself and Connecticut. To me it seemed as though these names were quietly honorific (when I bothered to remember that they are Native American names). But I had little awareness of any stories behind them.  Only later when I was first in the Northwest in the 1970s did I learn of some political activity around the original wound of theft and displacement. And I heard more active prejudice and some scornful white talk about “drunken Indians.”

READINGS FOR THE COURSE
Al-Din, Salah (2015) Also known as Robert Eddy. cited at the end.
Mann, Charles C.  1491: New Revelations of the Americas Before Columbus  2005, Vintage.

ASSIGNMENTS
Daily freewrites
Recurrent practice giving oral speeches. The goal is to explore and learn to produce “weighted words”
Research:  Describe the landscape and inhabitants of the territory where this class is occurring
Reading:  Mann, Charles C. 1491 New Revelations of the Americas Before Columbus 2nd Edition
A Core Writing Assignment: A Racial Autobiography. (For this we borrow what Robert Eddy [Salah Al-Din] describes toward the end of his essay. “It is clear that in preparing for white-minority, multi-racial USA we must re-invent our country, re-invent our universities, and re-invent our disciplines. . . . [We must] “Co-construct a new sociological imagination of what it means to be American, democratic and pluralistic” (Al-Din 12)
                        In particular I’ll start off as he does assigning a racial autobiography. And like him, I’ll have students revisit this assignment late in the semester. Here’s how he describes this two stage writing assignment:
For typical classroom strangers who need to actively prepare for our new white minority country, a simple but deeply potent and complex writing assignment . . . : a brief racial autobiography. It . . .  offers the most concrete, revelatory, and operative preparation for the rapidly approaching new USA of multi-racial complexity and opportunity with a white minority who needs to get seriously better at cross-racial communication . . . :
600 Words Maximum: How has your racial identity influenced your sense of self?
Describe the impact of racial identity in your life -- not race generally, but your race, as you define and name it, and any significant experiences, teachings and values pertaining to that identity. Optional source of interviewing two family members about their experiences of and beliefs about being "x" race would give your writing even more depth and complexity. If you belong to more than one race, by all means acknowledge that and analyze how having more than one racial identity influences you. . . .  [This assignment] was given me by a friend who could not locate its source, nor could I. If the author could identify herself-himself, I will happily acknowledge this important pedagogical work.)
End-of-semester “Racial Autobiography Revisited”: Write a 1000 words maximum paper in which you do the following:
1. re-read the assignment above;
2. re-read your paper from the beginning of the semester;
3. title your new paper: “Racial Autobiography Revisited: What I have Learned Since Writing My Racial Autobiography at the Start of the Course.”

Appendix.  Two Useful Passages from Eddy’s essay:
               For each of us to begin to read and understand our individual racialization within the politics of representation of our racialized group, we must each increase and focus our sociological imagination on our individual identity in terms of our “race,” and for those of us who are teachers, we must systemically help our students to individually and collectively do so in a setting not of encouraging guilt for white individuals or anger for people of color, though these emotions might indeed be present, but instead in the spirit of increased and satisfying cross-racial communication as whole human beings invited and in the end required in the soon-to-be white minority USA. How can or should we study our racialization? . . .
               The political-economic dominance of white Americans means that even in our multi-racial present moment in the USA, many white Americans still see themselves as “normal,” “as just a human being,” as not a race.  This routine normalization of whiteness (Wise), is a major way in which white supremacy and white privilege give choices to Americans constructed as white, that no other racialized groups can access.

Works Cited 
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--“Rhetorics of Survivance: How American Indians Use Writing.” College Composition and Communication, vol. 53, no. 3, 2002, pp. 396-434.