RantWoman is sometimes feeling better and sometimes not about her Compost matter. RantWoman thought she might be able to let it rest after last month's Business Meeting. WHAT was RantWoman thinking?
RantWoman thought that relegating things to "Shut up and Pray" at the silent retreat would let her do the Baptist Sunday school thing and give it to God. God kept giving it back though God was still not getting RantWoman clear what to do. RantWoman will write separately of one request.
Then along came MINUTES, first the summary in our newsletter and then at RantWoman's request an emailed copy of the minutes. This led to more email and a phone call from our clerk and maybe a conversation RantWoman needs to have with someone who has since been out of town. RantWoman at first look had a strong leading to urge the clerk away from wording that seems to sweep many questions under the rug. RantWoman, though still "shrekked out" about personal matters, NOT actually a Dear Friend problem, that continue to refuse to simplify, to quote a Dear Friend expression, is clear that it seems totally fair to the truth to say that there is no shared understanding of many questions and the matter is being deferred without expectation of resolution on any set timeline. RantWoman knows perfectly well what she wrote last month. RantWoman means it to the nth degree about not wanting the clerk to keep nagging anything before every Business Meeting. RantWoman is totally unclear at this moment why it seems so important to speak also of broader truths now in the minutes.
The minutes wound up not being perfectly to RantWoman's taste but RantWoman wound up having very little leading to object further in Business Meeting.
Mainly because of the item RantWoman will write of separately, RantWoman followed up from Business Meeting with a blanket request to committee clerks to have items due to be handed out at Business Meeting emailed to her in advance. RantWoman got back several replies asking to be reminded every month. RantWoman will of course issue such reminders, at least until another project she is involved with gets around to seasoning a more general recommendation about making such services available to anyone with email before Business Meeting.
RantWoman will be glad of a possible general recommendation if only because it will spare her any need to be annoyed that others around her interact less than satisfactorily about her vision realities. It's not like this flavor of Friends has a long history of faith healing or like RantWoman expects the hand of God to magically undo what DNA lotto and medical science have already wrought. RantWoman in fact would be really grateful if Friends could just bear her realities in mind. Apparently, RantWoman is relieved for the time being of much need to be grateful--and obliged to be humble about a further point: Dear Friend while recently recording clerk, DID in fact email RantWoman many kinds of things and RantWoman had to lecture him a couple times about bad process because of just doing it and not recording / seasoning the action with anyone else. Who says RantWoman even knows how to be properly grateful!
RantWoman learned that work is occurring around some questions on her mind, besides the eldering ones previously mentioned.
Communications between RantWoman and Dear Friend have deteriorated further. Dear Friend has decided to block RantWoman's email There was more said than that, but enough. Adult supervision with a member of Oversight for an intermediary will have to do for now.
Sometimes RantWoman is sorry because Dear Friend can be a hoot. Sometimes RantWoman reads message after message that feel to her like she has to fight for space in the conversation and does not mind a break.
RantWoman reads a wonderful piece by Liz Opp about stewardship of a leading.
http://thegoodraisedup.blogspot.com/2010/02/more-reflections-on-ministry-leadings.html
There is great quoted material from Lloyd Lee Wilson, but unfortunately the link to the http://www.quakerbooks.org/essays_on_the_quaker_vision_of_gospel_order.php
page caused RantWoman a rant she has been trying to postpone about Quaker presses needing to get with the 21st century. RantWoman wants to READ; she does not even want to try to read print. Have y'all heard of e-books???? When RantWoman is feeling calm and centered, she knows perfectly well that she can work with a leading to keep speaking up about access like this and maybe even secure a minute of support from her Meeting. Who said RantWoman is doing very well about calm and centered, let alone focused about requesting such a minute?
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